What? No. That's not what I meant. I overthought it please disregard most of that message, it was stupid. I think I want to go, it's just the way you asked makes me nervous.
Don't worry about it. Why are you even worrying about that to begin with?
[You are above and beyond the call of duty already.
It's those words, niggling at the back of his mind, that keep him from further dismissing Giorno's worries. He can see the shape of it: because Fugo would do anything for him, Giorno worries about Fugo going along with things he doesn't want to do for his sake. What he can't quite figure out on his own is why that's something worth worrying about.]
It's not your fault. I'm just getting worked up over nothing because I didn't expect the conversation to turn out this way when you first messaged me. And I can tell that you're joking, mostly, with the way you asked.
I like spending time with you. I'm not nervous about that. We do things and eat together all the time, this would just be setting time aside specifically to do that in places we wouldn't usually have the opportunity to visit.
I'm nervous about it being a measure of success. I think? You aren't wrong about our collective inexperience, especially mine. I don't want to fuck up going on a date with you.
shit, that's not what i meant. i was trying to make it seem lighthearted and not a big deal because i was nervous and i did it completely backwards.
FUCK okay forget all of that
it's not a benchmark of success at all that was stupid. i just want to have one every mission because i thought it would be a good idea and i thought it would be less overwhelming if it was introduced as part of the mission but it's not, at all. and anyway quality isn't a factor of dates, it's just
you couldn't fuck up on a date with me because the success of the date is the fact that you're with me.
No that's okay I can tell that now. And I was making a joke too, sort of, except it was stupid and honestly I should probably stop trying to be clever when I am surprised and/or annoyed.
I'll forget everything you said except not really because that would be ultimately counterproductive and honestly it would be kind of stressful to have this conversation twice.
But... ok. Are you sure? It seems to me like a date could fuck up because it's boring or the movie is bad or you end up with a stomachache. Or whatever. You get what I mean, right?
but if we're on a date and the movie's bad and i get a stomachache or, i don't know, lose a pin or something, it would still be better than anything else i could be doing. if the movie's bad you'd help me make fun of it, and if i got a stomachache you'd make me tea, and if i lost a pin you'd help me look for it. i don't care about what we do, really. i want to spend time with you as just us, not as coworkers or teammates or anything like that. as
this other thing that we are
we don't really have a word for it yet, do we. but: as that. that's how i want to spend time with you. i promise you can't fail at it. you could deliberately plan the most boring date ever and i wouldn't even notice because i'd be too excited that you planned a date.
I would never, even though all of that is ... it's a lot and I'm embarrassed and mad that I'm embarrassed because nothing I want to say is going to come out right.
What you said doesn't make sense logically speaking but I think I've just got to terms that this-- other thing we are, it's probably never going to be logical and that's ok. If you're sure about all of that, I'll try not to worry too much about it. But I can't promise not to worry at all because I really don't know what I'm doing and even if I can't fail I want to do a good job if I'm the one planning. Which I realize will not be all the time, but even if I don't plan I don't want to be
I don't know. I'm thinking too much. I believe you. That's the important thing I hope. I'm going to stop writing this message now, it's really long and stupid
[. . . This is a good message. He likes it a lot. As distressed as he is to have made Fugo this nervous by going about this conversation as nonsensically as possible, he can't not love this message. It's cute. It's really cute.]
[Still. Minimizing distress seems like the right thing to do in this situation. On the other hand, everything he's tried to minimize distress so far has been pretty disastrous. His other option is . . . being honest. Isn't it.]
[He considers a message, reconsiders it, gets ready to send it after all, hesitates, and then just thinks: Well, he'll just have to deal with it.]
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Don't worry about it. Why are you even worrying about that to begin with?
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i didn't mean to make you nervous. sorry.
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It's those words, niggling at the back of his mind, that keep him from further dismissing Giorno's worries. He can see the shape of it: because Fugo would do anything for him, Giorno worries about Fugo going along with things he doesn't want to do for his sake. What he can't quite figure out on his own is why that's something worth worrying about.]
It's not your fault. I'm just getting worked up over nothing because I didn't expect the conversation to turn out this way when you first messaged me. And I can tell that you're joking, mostly, with the way you asked.
I like spending time with you. I'm not nervous about that. We do things and eat together all the time, this would just be setting time aside specifically to do that in places we wouldn't usually have the opportunity to visit.
I'm nervous about it being a measure of success. I think? You aren't wrong about our collective inexperience, especially mine. I don't want to fuck up going on a date with you.
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shit, that's not what i meant. i was trying to make it seem lighthearted and not a big deal because i was nervous and i did it completely backwards.
FUCK
okay forget all of that
it's not a benchmark of success at all that was stupid. i just want to have one every mission because i thought it would be a good idea and i thought it would be less overwhelming if it was introduced as part of the mission but it's not, at all. and anyway quality isn't a factor of dates, it's just
you couldn't fuck up on a date with me because the success of the date is the fact that you're with me.
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I'll forget everything you said except not really because that would be ultimately counterproductive and honestly it would be kind of stressful to have this conversation twice.
But... ok. Are you sure? It seems to me like a date could fuck up because it's boring or the movie is bad or you end up with a stomachache. Or whatever. You get what I mean, right?
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you're going to laugh at me.
but if we're on a date and the movie's bad and i get a stomachache or, i don't know, lose a pin or something, it would still be better than anything else i could be doing. if the movie's bad you'd help me make fun of it, and if i got a stomachache you'd make me tea, and if i lost a pin you'd help me look for it. i don't care about what we do, really. i want to spend time with you as just us, not as coworkers or teammates or anything like that. as
this other thing that we are
we don't really have a word for it yet, do we. but: as that. that's how i want to spend time with you. i promise you can't fail at it. you could deliberately plan the most boring date ever and i wouldn't even notice because i'd be too excited that you planned a date.
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not going to laugh at you
I would never, even though all of that is ... it's a lot and I'm embarrassed and mad that I'm embarrassed because nothing I want to say is going to come out right.
What you said doesn't make sense logically speaking but I think I've just got to terms that this-- other thing we are, it's probably never going to be logical and that's ok. If you're sure about all of that, I'll try not to worry too much about it. But I can't promise not to worry at all because I really don't know what I'm doing and even if I can't fail I want to do a good job if I'm the one planning. Which I realize will not be all the time, but even if I don't plan I don't want to be
I don't know. I'm thinking too much. I believe you. That's the important thing I hope. I'm going to stop writing this message now, it's really long and stupid
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[Still. Minimizing distress seems like the right thing to do in this situation. On the other hand, everything he's tried to minimize distress so far has been pretty disastrous. His other option is . . . being honest. Isn't it.]
[He considers a message, reconsiders it, gets ready to send it after all, hesitates, and then just thinks: Well, he'll just have to deal with it.]
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