[ Abbacchio understands how easy it is to forget that people actually care, that people will continue to care. Maybe in part, he's thinking about Pompeii. How quickly he'd been willing to abandon Fugo for the sake of the mission. Both of them had been willing to do whatever was necessary, even if that meant putting themselves at risk. At the time he'd thought that was the right thing to do, there was nothing more important than their duty to carry out their mission. But now? Now he can't help but wonder what it must have been like for Fugo.
Fugo, who must have known without a doubt, what choice Abbacchio would have made. Who then would have been able to justify that choice because he would have done the same—or at least, Abbacchio believes he would have. It's part of the job. It was expected of them. But that mentality, that they aren't important—it makes it easy to throw away one's self-preservation. It comes to him easily, and when it comes down to it, he worries that Fugo is much the same, and therein lies the concern.
With what he knows now, had that mission in Pompeii gone differently, had Fugo not made it out, he thinks it would have been a devastating blow. Not to the mission—screw the mission—but to them as people. No matter how much they all try to compartmentalise. ]
I just want you to remember, even when it's hard and things get shitty.
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Fugo, I don't want you to say anything.
[ Abbacchio understands how easy it is to forget that people actually care, that people will continue to care. Maybe in part, he's thinking about Pompeii. How quickly he'd been willing to abandon Fugo for the sake of the mission. Both of them had been willing to do whatever was necessary, even if that meant putting themselves at risk. At the time he'd thought that was the right thing to do, there was nothing more important than their duty to carry out their mission. But now? Now he can't help but wonder what it must have been like for Fugo.
Fugo, who must have known without a doubt, what choice Abbacchio would have made. Who then would have been able to justify that choice because he would have done the same—or at least, Abbacchio believes he would have. It's part of the job. It was expected of them. But that mentality, that they aren't important—it makes it easy to throw away one's self-preservation. It comes to him easily, and when it comes down to it, he worries that Fugo is much the same, and therein lies the concern.
With what he knows now, had that mission in Pompeii gone differently, had Fugo not made it out, he thinks it would have been a devastating blow. Not to the mission—screw the mission—but to them as people. No matter how much they all try to compartmentalise. ]
I just want you to remember, even when it's hard and things get shitty.